Today, I Quit Quitting

I bet you thought I was dead. Nope, so sorry for those hoping I was. Unfortunately for you I'm very much alive and kickin'. So much so that I've been busy as a bee trying to get things straightened out in my life. If you've been following the blog, as in the last time I wrote anything, I was talking about getting my life in order and focusing on the things I do well. Since I last spoke to everyone, I realized I did these things well:

• Built Relationships
• Communicate
• Solve Problems
• Create quality solutions for unknown issues
• Develop standards that raise the bar for others
• Learn and Continue Learning well

Yeah, you think those things are all pretty common don't you? Well...who cares if they are. In fact, who cares how generic my list is. I don't, and it's my list... so there you go. But what I learned from this list is that I'm good at certain things. I'm good with people, I'm good with tough situations, and I'm good at learning how to make myself a better person as well as others. 

This is What I Wanted

Now I'm sure there's a million things I could do with that. However, I want to focus on a goal I long ago had. The goal, that when my then girlfriend's dad asked me what I wanted to do for a career I answered confidentially and surprised him, that I long disregarded and thought was "too tough". 

That goal, was to become a Sports Agent or to work inside Sports Law with individuals and teams. I strayed away from it because I thought I was never good enough to do it. That I wasn't smart enough, rich enough, or driven enough. You see, I chickened out and walked away from the only thing that ever excited me about school. That hope, that drive, that ambition to be great. 

I think looking back my biggest fault was me. In my Pre-Law classes we discussed murder, crime, and other various things that had no interest for me. So I became disenfranchised in class and quit paying attention. In reality I was really good for arguing cases, and I was really good at understanding the law. I didn't do well on final, simply because I was handed a tough situation. I was to write a brief on a case. That case, in real life, had already been solved and the person was proven guilty. My duty was to defend that person. Not only was every bit of evidence against him, but the case was already proven. This situation is something I did not want to be a part of and did not want anything to do with in my future. So, I walked away like I always seem to do when it gets a little tough. I stop trying to move forward. I stop getting through the 'dip'.

I Quit Quitting

I call it the 'dip' because of a book by Seth Godin called "The Dip". We all go through dips, but it's those of us who get through the dips that find happiness and success while those who quit keep entering a new dip. 

Much like my life of constant dips, I realized I was a quitter and not a winner. Winner's can quit and winners can move forward. I was a loser who quit because I was afraid of the work, the effort, the passion I needed to put into it to do great things. As I often am, I'm a chicken and a baby when it comes to the struggle. That's why I am where I am, I don't like the struggle, I don't ride the bus if I don't have to. Instead I stand in the rain all day waiting for another bus, but the Struggle Bus is the only one coming...every day. 

One Way Ticket on the Struggle Bus

So it's time for me to buck up and hop on that bus. Because if I don't, I'll never know what it's like to get something I want. Look, I'm going to be 27 this year. I'm not getting any younger, and if you had asked me 10 years ago my plan and my vision for today...it's far from what it is. I'm tired of being a quitter. So I won't be one anymore. I'm going to struggle, I'm going to fight, I'm going to keep going until it kills me. Because it won't kill me, I can do this. I can do anything. 

What is it I'm doing then? To start I'm going to become more motivated and driven. I can make money doing some of the things I love right now while working to get where I want to be. I want to write blogs and share with the world my feelings and thoughts, but I need something from you guys. I need you to buy things from my eBay and Amazon stores. I need you to visit the affiliates on the sites and I need you to purchase products you want and need. I'll list ads I think you guys want, so support me in this and I'll give you more things to love. 

Secondly, this week I've ordered my study prep books for the LSAT. I know it's ungodly tough and Law School isn't for the kind at heart. However, I plan to achieve a J.D. over the next 3-4 years (depending how soon I get in) and follow that with an L.L.M in Sports Law. 

It's my Ambitions, Don't Hate

I believe this path is the one that best suites me. Following those I plan to begin working for a University or with professional athletes. 

This is what I want to do. This is what I need to do. So, I ask all of you support me in ways that you see fit. You can donate to my cause via the donation link, you can buy products from me online, you can visit my advertisers, or you can simply cheer me on. But that's what I'm doing with myself, that's what I've learned about myself over the past month. 

I know along the way I've been all over the place, but I'm glad I found the path I was on before. I'm grateful for this opportunity to do it again. This time I'm doing it right though.